TOYAH!

I just saw this on You Tube. God I loved Toyah....she was great! The 80's were so much fun!

I can't sleep

I thought since I cannot get to sleep due to noise round here, I'd make an appearance on my blog. I just took a Xanax which will hopefully knock me out, or at least zone me out enough that I can fall asleep. This is the 4th night I've had to take one to get to sleep and I don't like doing this. They were not given to me to sleep-I am going to need these during the summer for my nerves and I'm on my last refill. I'll have to see next month if my doctor is still willing to give me more. I hope he is...I'm not keen on the idea of turning back into the psycho lunatic I was before January. The Xanax has stopped me from annihilating furniture and expensive electronic equipment.

A few weeks ago I ordered more Rowan Denim yarn for another sweater from their Denim book. It arrived this afternoon but I was running around like a madman I didn't get to dig into it. I got the darkest blue, I think it's called Tennessee? I now need to make up my mind between the two sweaters I got it for. Seahorse is one and Sheringham is the other.


I'm still writing. I'm in the process of finishing up another story. It's a bit slower going now than it was in my 20's....I can't shut the world out here. When I was living at home I could just close my door and that was it. I don't have that luxury here. There is no door to close. When I move I will make sure I have a room to write that has a door I can close. That scene in The Shining when Jack flips out and tells Wendy whenever she hears his typing to stay way really isn't that far off from the truth.

There has to be a happy balance between creativity and life...I just don't know how to strike it anymore. I used to...it's just not working out anymore. My life has become too damn structured. I live by rigid schedules, something I used to shake my head at my dad for doing-I've become worse than my dad ever was as far as that goes. I don't even fart if it's not scheduled in.

Happy Knitting...;-)

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HI

Still alive and knitting...writing a short story too and listening to Metallica at the moment. I thought this was fun:

45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone
whats your name spelt backwards?:	Yrrej
What did you do last night?:	Worked on a short story
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?:	A pic of a hot guy...wanna see? :-)
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?:	Of course....hasn't everone at one time or another?
Last time you swam in a pool?:	Bloody hell, 10 or so years ago?
What are you wearing?:	Otomix sneakers, Levis 501'a and a DIO concert T shirt
How many cars have you owned?:	5, I'm on my 5th
Type of music you dislike most?:	Rap
Are you registered to vote?:	Yes-why I bother I dunno-they do what they want anyway.
Do you have cable?:	No, DirecTV, I hate cable.
What kind of computer do you use?:	Apple Macintosh baby! PPC G5
Ever made a prank phone call?:	As a wee lad, sure
You like anyone right now?:	Yes
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?:	I did bungee jump once...that was enough.
Furthest place you ever traveled?:	Mexico
What's your favorite comic strip?:	Rose is Rose, Fox Trott was a close second
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?:	Yes
Shower, morning or night?:	Someteims morning, sometimes night-sometiems both
Best movie you've seen in the past month?:	Hmm, The Night Listener
Favorite pizza toppings?:	Garlic and anchovies
Chips or popcorn?:	Popcorn
What cell phone provider do you have?:	None yet tho possibly Cingular when Apple's iPhone comes out
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?:	Pardon me? Is this like that joke of smoking banana peels to get high?
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?:	No
Orange Juice or apple?:	Both please ;-) But not together
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?:	I dunno, strangers last Friday in Cambridge
favorite chocolate bar?:	Hershey's special dark
Who is your longest friend and how long?:	Paula...22 years, 23 years and counting
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?:	last summer
Have you ever won a trophy?:	yes
Favorite arcade game?:	MARBLE MADNESS!
Ever ordered from an infomercial?:	I dont think so, no
Sprite or 7-UP?:	Ginger Ale (can ya tell I'm difficult?)
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?:	Yes-it didn't last long
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?:	I don't go there. I prefer Duane Reade (told ya I love NY)
Ever thrown up in public?:	Once, yes. You're not a true metal head till you have
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?:	I can't have both? True love
Do you believe in love at first sight?:	yes
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?:	WHO?
Did you have long hair as a young kid?:	No. That's why I refuse to cut it now as an adult
What message is on your voicemail machine?:	None, I erased the answer phone this AM
Where would you like to go right now?:	Silly question...New York City
Whats the name of your pet?:	Midnight
What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?:	I don't have one
What do you think about most?:	Guys, clothes, Guys, roller coasters, Guys, sex , movies, Guys, did I mention Guys?
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Erotica...(or a dirty story depending on your perspective)

I went to Boston Friday early afternoon to look for an Elizabeth Zimmermann book, "Knitting Workshop" which I picked up along with a
hank of green Mountain Colours wool to make another pair of fingerless mitts. it felt so good to get out again that I jumped back on the train and headed over to Cambridge for lunch. I had to spread out a magazine to dive into as I *hate* eating alone.

Anyway, on the subway ride back, where I had to switch trains I saw this guy walking down the platform. Umm, you know the line in the Eagles song Life In The Fast Lane "He was a hard-headed man, he was brutally handsome." Well...that was this dude-BRUTALLY handsome. I'd peg him in his mid 20', no older than 26 I guess. So he's been on my mind. I woke up yesterday morning and did something I've not done in a LONG time. I sat my butt down and wrote a short story....actually it wrote itself. I used to write erotica back in the 90's off and on. I'd like to do more of it, it's fun but how many hours are in a day? Where do I apply for an extension...27 or 28 hours may be more what I need.

I've been thinking of joining myspace as I saw there's a plethora of gay erotica writers there...do I *really* need to do this? It might get me and keep me writing but do I honestly need to take on one more internet thing? This is one thing I guess I could go do in Boston...grab my Powerbook and go sit somewhere in the city and write smut LOL! I just cannot bring myself to knit in public :-(

I do have to say it feels good...you'd think I won the lottery but getting that short story out sent me over a cloud. This is what I need...the creativity is starting to flow.

And what are the chances this dude is reading this? Slim to none but on the off chance you are...you had a brown leather jacket on and a coloured iPod (I'm not giving it all away-gotta make sure it's you, don't I? *GG*) I was banging my head to Guns & Roses-I stood right in front of where you sat and saw you checkin' out the Borders bag I was carrying- Orange Line out of Boston Friday afternoon about 3. Thank you for the inspiration-your eyes are incredible....you are HOT dude! Contact me!!!

We're going to my dad's for Easter dinner. We so rarely eat together anymore. My mom had the whole family every Sunday. Now that there's only my dad left....Umm, I'm not going down that road right now.